My Personal Journey

If someone would have told me two years ago that Keisha would pass away when I wasn’t home and it would devastate me to the point of contacting an animal communicator to get to say goodbye to her thus resulting in my becoming an animal communicator I would have thought they were crazy

On April 7, 2003 my life changed forever. I was away visiting my son with my daughter and grandson and had left Keisha, Griffy and Freckles in the capable hands of my husband as I had done many times before. I phoned home every night at 5:00, especially to ask how my Keishee Girl was doing. She was my baby girl whom I had for 5 years before I brought Freckles and then Griffy into our home. I’d had her to the vets 2 weeks before I left for Florida and my vet said even though she was turning gray and was getting older she said she was so healthy and happy she should live to be at least 13. Besides I always knew that Keisha and I were so close and that I would be there with her when it was her time to go. I would be the one to comfort her and tell her I loved her and kiss her one last time. I called on the 8th day to be told that Keisha was gone. I asked what was meant by gone and was told she had died earlier that day. She had been playing with her two ‘brothers’ outside in the snow, went inside, laind down on the couch and when she was checked on a few hours later she was gone. My daughter and I drove with my 3 year old grandson for almost 18 hours straight, stopping only for 4 hours to give my grandson a break, to get home to Keisha. By the time I got home she was already in a freezer at the vets and all I could do was uncover her head down to her shoulders to see her. I could only lean in far enough to kiss her on her nose. I couldn’t even believe that she had gone without me getting to say goodbye and they were coming to pick her up in only an hour to have her cremated. I needed to find some closure and I needed a chance to find out what happened to her and to tell her to wait for me and to tell her how much I missed her and loved her.

I found a pet loss website and posted her photo along with a memorial to her. I posted a message asking if anyone knew of a pet psychic because I had seen one on TV a few times and thought this was my way to say goodbye and seeing if she was ok. I was given her name and number and I called her right away and made my appt. I had stopped eating and sleeping and lived for the day of that appointment. I called her and she told me that Keisha never left my side along with many other things that assured me she was talking to Keisha and then she told me that Keisha wanted to come back to me. I had never heard of such a thing and was quite shocked when she told me but never the less, she told me to look for a white puppy and Keisha would take care of the rest. Not knowing if I believed or not, but knowing that I would do anything to have my baby back I began my search. Six weeks later, after missing out on a few other puppies, I found one on the internet that was one state away. I drove over with my n friend and grandson to look at her and fell in love instantly. I went home and called the woman back and she said that Keisha said that it was she. Keisha had passed away after this puppy was born so I was very confused as to how it could be Keisha. At this time I was introduced to the idea of “walk-ins”. Briefly, walk-ins can occur when an animal has come into the world and is having a rough time of it, being abused, abandoned, etc. The spirit who wants to come back approaches that animal and asks permission to take over that body. If they are in agreement, once the animal is with the human for good the switch will occur. Keisha waited to be sure that I had the puppy and was bringing her home and then made the switch. Her new name was Maggie. There were some days when I believed whole-heartedly that Keisha was back in Maggie. Then there were some days when Maggie, as a puppy, destroyed my house and I just couldn’t believe that Keisha, my good baby girl, could ever be in Maggie.

In the meantime I found two other animal communicators on the internet. Teresa, who helped me deal with my grief over losing Keisha, introduced me to flower essences and helped me to try to accept that Keisha was back in Maggie and Anita, who gave me such specifics regarding Keisha and Maggie that it was very hard for me not to believe. Everyone kept trying to tell me that since I hadn’t known Keisha as a puppy it wasn’t fair to her not to believe that she was back as Maggie. Some days were better than others and some days I believed and others I fell right back into despair.

Around the same time that I contacted Anita I was also given the name of a hypno-therapist by my doctor in the hopes that she could help me not think of losing Keisha the way I did but to concentrate on the happy times with Keisha. As it turned out not only was Patricia a hypno-therapist but a psychic as well. She enabled me to watch her contact Maggie/Keisha while I was with her in the office so that I could see her at work.

I am the type of person who has to see something or experience it myself to believe it. I deal in facts and I knew that the only way I was going to be totally satisfied was if I could talk to Keisha and my other animals on my own.

Luckily for me, Anita lives approximately 60 miles from me and gives animal communication workshops. I called her and asked if she thought that I could do it and was told absolutely so I registered for a workshop scheduled for September.

With Anita’s, Teresa’s and Patricia’s help I started to meditate and prepare myself as best as I could so that I would be ready for the weekend workshop.

I got there and immediately felt safe with those who also were attending. I couldn’t wait to get started and be able to talk to Maggie/Keisha, Griffy and Freckles. We were put through different exercises and I was astonished at how easy things were coming to me. Then we took partners and traded photos of animals and asked each other questions for our animals. I didn’t use Keisha’s or Maggie’s photo. I chose to use Freckles because I wanted to talk to Maggie/ Keisha myself. I was right on with my answers for my partner and she was correct with her answers from Freckles. The first day’s workshop was over and I couldn't wait for part two the next day. We did more exercises and then finally the time came, the one that I had been waiting months for. It was time to talk to those who had passed on. I need to tell you that even though animal’s spirits come back they all leave a part of themselves on the other side. That is why they aren’t exactly as they were before when they do come back. They may have different missions and lessons for coming back this time. I had been told that I had the best of both worlds because I had Keisha in Maggie to have the physical presence but a part of her was still on the other side and that side could help me with learning animal communication. Keisha had also told me that this is what I was meant to do in this lifetime and she was very happy that I was getting involved and wanted to learn Reiki for animals as well. I was so excited just knowing that I was going to talk to Keisha. All the other exercises were very easy for me and had gone exceptionally well so in my mind nothing could go wrong. Anita put us through the exercise and I got nothing. No Keisha, not even Maggie, Freckles or Griffy. Then I was told that it could take a long time till I could reach Keisha or my other guys because of the emotional ties that I have with them.

I went home totally devastated for a second time. I didn’t care about talking to other animals. I needed to be with Keisha no matter where that was and how I did it. I tried and tried but nothing happened. Then one day I was meditating and I wondered where Freckles was. I asked him if he would come into the room to see me, give me his paw and lay down at my feet and wouldn’t you know it he came into the room and did as I asked. Then I asked Griffy if he would come in and give me a kiss and low and behold he came in and gave me a big wet one. I tried to reach Maggie/Keisha and still nothing. I called Anita in a fit of panic and told her that maybe I couldn’t reach Keisha because she was in Maggie and also on the other side. She said that Keisha was very frustrated and sad as well because she thought coming back in Maggie would make me happy and she knew that I was still hurting so much. I told Anita to tell Keisha that she should leave Maggie and go back on the other side so that maybe I could reach her then. Anita relayed this to her and she told me that it was done. I watched Maggie become a different dog right before my eyes. She even smelled differently from then on. Once I realized that Keisha was gone and the previous spirit was back in Maggie guess what? I panicked all over again over losing Keisha.

After some time I started to try to reach Keisha through dousing and this is how I can communicate with my babies.

On April 12th of last year I had to help my dear sweet Freckles cross over to the other side. I was grateful that I had been able to communicate with him before he crossed and that I could be with him when he crossed but it was just as devastating to lose him also. It’s hard to lose the physical presence of our babies even if we do know that they are with us in spirit.

Keisha came back to me a few months ago in the puppy we now call Lilo. I did not go looking for her this time but instead she found me just like she told me she would. This time I know it is she and it's not because of anything that she does that Keisha did. It's the feeling I have when I'm cuddling with her. Once again I have that "being home" feeling. I've asked the part of Keisha's spirit that she left on the other side if the part of her in Lilo has recognition that she is Keisha and she tells me not yet. A few months ago we had a workshop at my home and I didn't tell anyone that Keisha was back. I had a woman ask Lilo what her favorite things to do were. She told me that she loved to swim, go for rides with her Daddy in his truck and play Frisbie. Lilo has not done any of these things yet. Lilo answered the questions like Keisha would

As for Freckles, he is still debating whether or not he will be returning or not. He was very sick when he crossed over and he just wants more time to heal and he really enjoys being on the other side. He is not alone but with the spirit part of Keisha on the other side.

Both Keisha and Freckles continue to help me with my readings through dousing, and by bringing the animals that I talk to closer to me.